Which is a shame, i must say.
ITs funny i feel restless but i don't want to leave the house, i feel terrible, i think it maybe my neck. when i turn my head it sounds like there is sand in the joints. yuch. And when i finally get to bed, my mind refuses to shut down...and its all that mundane shit in your head that has no relevance to anything at all and then it keeps going round in circles. the only good thing is that i found natural sleeping pills. and can now stop using the "if you take more then one, you will die" ones, (i usually took 2) and since i am still alive i gather it is vaguely safe. um i also found more of mums valium and have nicked a supply of that for emergancies. yeah i have no respect for my body, but then i never did. though i do like my back for the simple reason i can't see it. well my beloved brother is coming home so it time to kill more americans on x-box.