you know when someone says are you in love? well everytime someone said that before i have said no, i am not in love. Everytime my mother said "but you love him" it was easy to say. "mother no, i feel nothing." grandma again "No grandma i am not in love."
but know it is abit different, i can't say that, truthfully, i never really lie, i mix enough truth into my lies to make it difficult to tell truth from fiction. I omit things, there are many ways to love, but this is new to me, previously i'd go a week, more withour contact, pysical or by phone, now i can't go a day without at least a conversation. it is very very tragic. more so then anything i have done in the past.
he's taking me out to dinner this saturday, he and his Godfather Chris are finding the place he's gonna take me. i am very excited, no one has ever taken me out to dinner before. i discribe my family like a den of wolves or dogs, we are pack and they have accepted my mate... which is good, dog fights can get ugly.